Thursday, December 29, 2011
I got my port out Tuesday. I didn't realize how stressed I was about having it done.
They told me they weren't going to completely knock me out this time but I wouldn't
know what was happening. When they took me into the operating room I asked them,
"You said I wouldn't know what was happening right?" the nurse responded,
"Right, you won't feel a thing." They tied down both of my hands so I wouldn't "help"
the Dr. and my legs. They put something blue over my face and then I felt the Dr. give
me a shot next to the port to numb the area. I heard her say "blade" and then felt her push
on it and I could feel it going across my skin. I will say nothing hurt except the initial shot and
when it felt like she was stitching it up but she used glue so I don't know why it felt like
she was stitching it, weird. I felt fine after except very sore. When I tried to eat later in the evening
I couldn't keep anything down. I haven't been able to eat much in the past week and I've lost
about 6 lbs. but I am starting to feel better from the surgery and tomorrow is my last day
of radiation, yay! yay! and yay! again!!!! I hope this is my last time of radiation forever.
I have been radiated a total of 59 times. I should have a long shelf life now.
I do want to say the nurse I had when I went in, her name was Cheryl, was awesome.
She was extremely sweet and tried to help me however needed and keep me as pain free
as possible. She was just a very kind, Christian lady.
The radiologist said it would be 2-3 weeks before I would be able to eat without pain after
my last treatment. He also said it would be up to 9 weeks or so for the areas he radiated to start feeling better.
I am going to enjoy not going to the Dr. 5 days a week very much!
Wednesday, December 21, 2011
From Jesus Calling 12/21/11
My plan for your life is unfolding before you. Sometimes the road you are traveling seems blocked, or it opens up so painfully slowly that you must hold yourself back. Then, when time is right, the way before you suddenly clears--through no effort of own. What you have longed for and worked for I present to you freely, as pure gift. You feel awed by the ease with which I operate in the world, and you glimpse My Power and My Glory.
Do not fear your weakness, for it is the stage on which My Power and Glory perform most brilliantly. As you persevere along the path I have prepared for you, depending on My strength to sustain you, expect to see miracles--and you will. Miracles are not always visible to the naked eye, but those who live by faith can see them clearly. Living by faith, rather than sight, enables you to see My Glory.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
I am really looking forward to having it gone. It has hurt ever since they put it in and hasn't really been usable. Every time it was used they would send me to the hospital for a leak or blood clot test because
Chuck said I would turn instantly white and look and feel like I was going to pass out. It would cause a burning pain in my chest that felt like it was going into my back. I will be happy to say goodbye port!
Good news, Jesse's been visiting the last couple of days. It's nice when they're both home. They both help me out so much. It's nice to not have to worry about stuff.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
3 days of Dr visits again this week. Wednesday, I went to the Radiologist and found out I would be starting radiation again on Thursday. So I had to get the "planning" done which includes;
lining up, photos, getting drawn on, getting sticky-ed, and a CT scan.
Thursday, I had Physical Therapy in the morning and left a little sore. I returned for radiation in the afternoon. Being the first time takes about an hour of laying flat on a metal table while they do more
lining up, more drawing on, xrays, actual radiation and tattoos. The tattoos are usually pretty painless but the one in the middle of my chest he hit the bone and I about jumped off the table. He said he was really sorry and I know he didn't mean to do that but ouch!
After Corey and I left we stopped and got something to eat and went home. By the time we arrived home I could hardly move. I don't know which was the reason PT or radiation but I slept for over 2 hours. I also had a new side effect - feeling extremely nauseous. I hope it's temporary.
Friday, after radiation Corey and I did a little Christmas shopping and again I was sooo tired after. I have to learn my limits again. And another evening of extreme nauseousness. Don't like that. I do have a med. that they gave me a while back for nauseous and tried it last night thankfully it helped some.
I also drove for the first time since September. Corey, Jesse, Stuart, Mom and Chuck have been chauffeuring me around since then. I will miss their company but radiation's 5 days a week - I need to be able to do this.
The people at radiation are extremely sweet and treat me like family. Chris one of the techs, gave me a hug when he saw me and told me they would take good care of me. Jared, one of the ones I feel like the grandma you see on tv who wants to fix him up with my daughter or niece cause he's got such a good heart and is a cutie, he's always super nice too. And the girls, you just want to hug them all cause they're always trying to take good care of me. They all say it's a big family there and they take care of their family. Grateful this is where I was sent for this part of my recovery.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
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It's two weeks since surgery. I feel a little better each day. I do get extremely exhausted which
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When I read the August 16th devotion from the book "Streams in the Desert" that my sister-n-law gave me, I had to post it. It is where I am, struggling to wait because I've always been a do-er. It is hard to not be able to go and do everything you want because your body stops you. It was also extremely hard to not be able to go back to work especially when I found out they'd given me an AC bus. The first day of school was difficult because I wasn't able to see all of my little kids in their first day of school cute outfits and get hugs from the ones that missed me. Some of these kids this would have been my 6th year with. I've seen them go through kindergarten to 5th grade. So sad that I lost my route because of this. But, I have to look on the positive side of all this -- hopefully I will get something better when I'm able to go back to work, a good bus, not a bone shaker, AC, and great kids. That is what I'm praying!
While I wait, I need to paint, draw, get my art going again and start selling some. This is the gift God's given me it's time to use it!
This was the reading for August 16th from Streams In The Desert.
Waiting is much more difficult than walking, for waiting requires patience, and patience is a rare virtue. We enjoy knowing that God builds hedges around His people, when we look at the hedge from the aspect of protection. But when we see it growing higher and higher until we can no longer see over it, we wonder if we will ever get out of out little sphere of influence and service, where we feel trapped. Sometimes it is hard for us to understand why we do not have a larger area of service, and it becomes difficult for us to “brighten the corner” where we are. But God has a purpose in all of His delays. “The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord” (Psalms 37:23).
Next to this verse, in the margin of his Bible, George Mueller made this note: “And the stops too.” It is a sad mistake for someone to break through God’s hedges. It is a vital principle of the Lord’s guidance for a Christian never to move from the spot where he is sure God has place him, until the “pillar of cloud” (Exodus 13:21) moves.
Once we learn to wait for the Lord’s leading in everything, we will know the strength that finds its highest point in an even and steady walk. Many of us are lacking the strength we so desire, but God gives complete power for every task He calls us to perform. Waiting—keeping yourself faithful to His leading---this is the secret of strength. And anything that does not align with obedience to Him is a waste of time and energy. Watch and wait for His leading.
Must life be considered a failure for someone compelled to stand still, forced into inaction and required to watch the great, roaring tides of life from shore? No—victory is then to be won by standing still and quietly waiting. Yet this is a thousand times harder to do than in the past, when you rushed headlong into the busyness of life. It requires much more courage to stand and wait and still not lose heart or lose hope, to submit to the will of God, to give up opportunities for work and leave honors to others, and to be quiet, confident, and rejoicing while the busy multitude goes happily along their way.
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A bone scan is a test to help find the cause of your back pain. It can be done to find damage to the bones, find cancer that has spread to the bones, and watch problems such as infection and trauma to the bones. A bone scan can often find a problem days to months earlier than a regular X-ray test.
For a bone scan, a radioactive substance is injected into a vein in your arm. This substance, called a tracer, travels through your bloodstream and into your bones. This could take several hours.
A special camera takes pictures of the tracer in your bones. Areas that absorb little or no amount of tracer appear as dark or "cold" spots. This could show a lack ofblood supply to the bone or certain types of cancer.
Areas of fast bone growth or repair absorb more tracer and show up as bright or "hot" spots in the pictures. Hot spots may point to problems such as arthritis, a tumor, a fracture, or an infection
From this test they found 2 more tumors; one on the top of my leg bone and one on a rib that showed a fracture. The fracture could have been caused by the bone being weakened by the tumor. My oncologist asked if I'd coughed hard. She said she broke 2 ribs just from coughing.
I think it happened trying to lock my bus door at work because I remembered hurting myself one day when trying to do this. I even filled out a form at work about it and that was the area that was injured.
The next test that was done was the CT scan:
A computed tomography (CT) scan uses X-rays to make detailed pictures of structures inside of the body.
During the test, you will lie on a table that is attached to the CT scanner, which is a large doughnut-shaped machine. The CT scanner sends X-rays through the body area being studied. Each rotation of the scanner takes less than a second and provides a picture of a thin slice of the organ or area. All of the pictures are saved as a group on a computer. They also can be printed.
An iodine dye (contrast material) is often used to make structures and organs easier to see on the CT pictures. The dye may be used to check blood flow, find tumors, and look for other problems. The dye can be used in different ways. It may be put in a vein (IV) in your arm, or it may be placed into other parts of your body (such as the rectum or a joint) to see those areas better. For some types of CT scans you drink the dye. CT pictures may be taken before and after the dye is used
This was the test my Dr.'s office called after and told me the radiologist said it didn't look good. He said they found a tumor in the breast and he thought it looked like breast cancer that had spread to the bones.
I thought I would list all the tests but I wanted to say something about these and not bore you with all the information all at once.
The bone scan I had done on a Saturday. I went in at 8a.m. and was injected with the radioactive dye. I had to leave for 3 hours and then return for the test. It wasn't painful, except for the injection and that really wasn't bad. The only problem I had from it was the stuff they injected made me feel weird for a couple of days - you know not myself - nauseous and sort of weak.
The CT scan I had to drink this stuff they tried to make taste like lemonade. I had to drink 2 large glasses, yuk after the 1st 1/2 but still able to get it down. They also did the contrast by IV which again I had the same problem with for a couple of days after, weak, nauseous, not myself. I had to hold my breath for part of the test a few times and that got a little difficult but if you have to do it you can, trust me.
That's enough for today.