Living with Cancer

When I read the August 16th devotion from the book "Streams in the Desert" that my sister-n-law gave me, I had to post it. It is where I am, struggling to wait because I've always been a do-er. It is hard to not be able to go and do everything you want because your body stops you. It was also extremely hard to not be able to go back to work especially when I found out they'd given me an AC bus. The first day of school was difficult because I wasn't able to see all of my little kids in their first day of school cute outfits and get hugs from the ones that missed me. Some of these kids this would have been my 6th year with. I've seen them go through kindergarten to 5th grade. So sad that I lost my route because of this. But, I have to look on the positive side of all this -- hopefully I will get something better when I'm able to go back to work, a good bus, not a bone shaker, AC, and great kids. That is what I'm praying!

While I wait, I need to paint, draw, get my art going again and start selling some. This is the gift God's given me it's time to use it!

This was the reading for August 16th from Streams In The Desert.

Waiting is much more difficult than walking, for waiting requires patience, and patience is a rare virtue. We enjoy knowing that God builds hedges around His people, when we look at the hedge from the aspect of protection. But when we see it growing higher and higher until we can no longer see over it, we wonder if we will ever get out of out little sphere of influence and service, where we feel trapped. Sometimes it is hard for us to understand why we do not have a larger area of service, and it becomes difficult for us to “brighten the corner” where we are. But God has a purpose in all of His delays. “The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord” (Psalms 37:23).

Next to this verse, in the margin of his Bible, George Mueller made this note: “And the stops too.” It is a sad mistake for someone to break through God’s hedges. It is a vital principle of the Lord’s guidance for a Christian never to move from the spot where he is sure God has place him, until the “pillar of cloud” (Exodus 13:21) moves.

Once we learn to wait for the Lord’s leading in everything, we will know the strength that finds its highest point in an even and steady walk. Many of us are lacking the strength we so desire, but God gives complete power for every task He calls us to perform. Waiting—keeping yourself faithful to His leading---this is the secret of strength. And anything that does not align with obedience to Him is a waste of time and energy. Watch and wait for His leading.

Must life be considered a failure for someone compelled to stand still, forced into inaction and required to watch the great, roaring tides of life from shore? No—victory is then to be won by standing still and quietly waiting. Yet this is a thousand times harder to do than in the past, when you rushed headlong into the busyness of life. It requires much more courage to stand and wait and still not lose heart or lose hope, to submit to the will of God, to give up opportunities for work and leave honors to others, and to be quiet, confident, and rejoicing while the busy multitude goes happily along their way.