Sedona, one of my favorite places out west.

I had heard the sunsets were something you

had to see.  Unfortunately, I left my good 

camera in the room and only had an ipod.

I had Corey's little camera too but I don't have

the wire to plug into my computer

I got the results back from my bone scan.

No new cancer.  The tumors in my spine are

still active but he thinks the radiation may take a

while longer to take effect, so no radiation for now.

That makes me happy!

I wish I'd known more about constipation caused by pain medication

and how to avoid it.  I have a problem caused by it that the Dr. I saw 

this week says surgery may be needed to correct it.  I flat out said no.  She

said if it gets worse I'll need to see a surgeon.  I'm holding out on this one.

I don't want anymore surgery.  I know I may have to eventually but not now.

Some good things have happened this week that I can't really

discuss right now but I thank God for His faithfulness and taking

care of my daughters.  God is great!

I’ve felt like I’ve allowed myself to be in a kind of serious - down spirit lately and reading the following from one of my books the other day helped me see it and start working on making a change-its just waiting for test results make me crazy

Learn to laugh at yourself more freely.  Don’t take yourself or your circumstances so seriously.  Relax and know that I am God with you.

When you desire My will above all else, life becomes much less threatening.  Stop trying to monitor My responsibilities—things that are beyond your control.  Find freedom by accepting the boundaries of your domain.

Laughter lightens your load and lifts your heart into heavenly places.  Your laughter rises to heaven and blends with angelic melodies of praise.  Just as parents delight in the laughter of their children, so I delight in hearing My children laugh.  I rejoice when you trust Me enough to enjoy your life lightheartedly.

Do not miss the Joy of My presence by carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders.  Rather, take My yoke upon you and learn from Me.  My yoke is comfortable and pleasant; My burden is light and easily borne.

from Jesus Calling

June 17th

so an appropriate cheer me up goofy picture of my girls

and me :)

Well, I had my bone scan done last week, Thursday.  Thankfully it went well and the guy got a vein the first try and I hardly felt anything.  That was awesome.  I'm going to tell the Dr. I always want to go there for that test.  But... I'm still waiting to hear the results.  I don't like waiting.  Hopefully it's a good thing.
 I got my Xgeva shot today.  Later this evening my arm was killing me and I kept wondering why it hurt, sheesh, how quickly I forget.

Last week - 2 Doctor appointments.  I guess I had a long enough break.
This week another bone scan to check for new cancer.  This is a test I hate
only because last time they couldn't find a vein, it took 7 tries and the last
one sprayed blood everywhere.  I almost passed out.  So I'm going to try
eating 1/2 a watermelon before I go to make my veins fat juicy.
I hope no new cancer but I have new pain so that's part of why they're checking.
When I went to the orthopedic surgeon last week he said I have 2 types of
bursitis in my hip.  Maybe the new pain is caused by something like that.

Is the midnight closing round you?
Are the shadows dark and long?
Ask Him to come close beside you,
And He'll give you song.

He'll give it and sing it with you;
And when weakness slows you down,
He'll take up the broken cadence,
And blend it with His own.

And many a heavenly singer
Among those sons of light,
Will say of His sweetest music,
"I learned it in the night."
And many a lovely anthem,
That fills the Father's home,
Sobbed out its first rehearsal,
In the shade of a darkened room.

taken from "Streams in the Desert" May 30th
George Matheson